It's Not All Moonlight and Roses

Today was a pretty quiet day. Abby more or less behaved herself. Maya just slept and ate and then slept and ate some more. I'm just waiting for her to wake up for that last bottle of the evening. Mike hurt his shoulder lugging books around at work so he was off today. So after I got Maya fed and back to sleep this morning I got to go back to bed for a couple of hours. What a treat that was. Mike and Maya both have doctor's appointments tomorrow, so we'll have Daddy home with us again tomorrow.

Abby is going to spend the day at Lyn's tomorrow. Mike had suggested she go earlier in the week when he over heard me snapping at her. I felt horrible when he said that to me and I feel pretty bad typing it out right now. Overall she's been good. Hearing stories of other people's kids I really have nothing to complain about. She wants to be very helpful, but all the helping can be a little much some days. Anything I'm doing at anytime, there she is.... Mommy can I help you. Sometimes I set her up with something to do, like a puzzle or colouring and then sneak off to unload the dishwasher, make bottles or whatever and in no time I hear the familar scrape of a chair being pushed across the kitchen floor. There she is at my elbow wanting to pour formula into the bottles, passing me freshly washed/sterlized bottle parts and in doing so negating the whole washing/sterlizing process and so on. She wants to help make dinner, but she'll be begging to make dinner at 10 in the morning and we both end up frusterated because she doesn't understand why I won't make dinner right there and then. When I don't agree to making dinner then she's on to cupcakes, let's make cupcakes. None of this is made an easier by the fact that she's a little bit bossy. Well I say a whole lot bossy, but she disagrees. Not to mention the pouting when she doesn't get her way. I must hear "Harumph, not fair!" a million times a day.

I'm trying really hard to keep my patience with her, but it all goes back to that sleep thing. Maya sleeps fairly well through the night. Her current schedule suits me fine, but I still don't get to sleep more than 3 - 4 hours at any one time. So I think, for the most part, we've been doing okay, but I think it would be good for Abby to be out and socializing with her friends. A day of just playing would be good for her because it has been a lot of work around here since Maya came home. I feel guilty and horrible for sending her to the sitters, but at the same time I recognize that a day of rest for me will only benefit all of us.